Life Note - Time and the Dude's Essence

I've picked up meditation, about a month ago or so. Been doing it everyday or so since. It helps, all right? I found it started helping right away, so keep your judgmental quips to yourself unless you tried. God, this feels like coming out of the closet and I have no idea why.

Meditation is one of these things perceived as exotic and enlightened, yet it's rather straightforward. Slow your body down, focus your mind unto something and let go of everything else. It's an active process, it's not easy, but when you get there something transcendent happens. Whatever is on your mind starts scrolling down like film roll. Then you can identify these things, understand them better and store them in the appropriate part of your mind: anxiety, frustration, hope, something cool that happened today, etc.

I got one of these advertised epiphany too, but only one. To be quite frank, I had it before and didn't pursue it. It became deeper and clearer with meditation. Have you ever felt like you weren't at the heart of the moment? I'm never really there, because I worry about what's left to do. That makes me rush through what I should take more time doing. Since it dawned on me that it was a stupid way to live, I've learned to stop thinking about the future while in the middle of doing something important, like you know, writing fiction. Does that make sense or am I being enlightened?

Point is, it's been better since. I'm still doing real beginner stuff, but it's a promising start. Being grounded keep my mind active and my perception of myself as uncluttered by needless stuff as possible.  Plus, I'm not the only crime writer who's been meditating.